Monday, November 27, 2006

abyss

a glass of cold water
will wash down the rage,
this heat.
it's raining here now.

have the rain drops washed away
the roads to be taken?

nothing is clear, except imaginations
and loose assumptions.
and isn't everything based on them!?

i saw myself flying,
but downward.
and the wake-up moment never struck!

yet they keep murmuring:
"ignorance is bliss!"

Friday, November 24, 2006

out of fog...

the last drops of my patience are evaporating.
and i don't think anything will be left after!

you might take it as a metaphore... but i have never felt this way in my entire life.
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right when you are full of hatred and run out of patience
there is this shallow woman
this woman of "manipulative logic" and very little emotion
who comes to you to ask you for help and favor... boldly, cheekily!
and then she wins the competetion, with your very help.
she calls you immediately and leaves a loud message with her dumb happy voice bragging:
"i got it!"

what a wonderful world!
who to blame?
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After-thought:
i am thinking of stripping ... throwing out all my thoughts and things that bother me...
even including personal stuff...
needs a humongous gut, i know!
i have created a blog for now...
what do you guys think?
how much are you ready to strip while commenting?

Saturday, November 18, 2006

I'm Bleeding Me ...

i'm digging my way
...to something better...
metallica, "bleeding me", album "load".

i'm being told the naked truth
that i neglected for years
...
who do i blame?
i'm so clueless.
though, of no use any more...
not any more.

he never knew she also said the same things to me;
but it was his words that pierced into my soul,
the core of my entire being!

there are things you'd like to tell them openly
but you find it out of place.
there are always things i'd like to scream about here
but i can't;
not even here!

where then?

this lump is growing
like cancer!
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i know i sound very down... but i need to be me... at least here.
i can't throw out weird questions or raise discussions like before...
not as long as this damn-ness sticks to my sticky stuffy life!
i'm sorry! that's why i don't write much! i'd rather listen... although i cannot turn the clock back.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

unconsciously aware of...

a diet without caffeine is like life without music.
i have quit coffee since 27-28 days ago... but sometimes i feel my nostrils are desparately deprived of a mesmerizing, enchanting and soothing fregrance... poor me! :(
that part of memory rsponisble for smells might need a surgery now... because i am fighting hard to resist the urge provoked by this memory association... damn it!
i want coffeeeeee!!
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if you have Quicktime plugin installed in your computer, it's worth listening to Ani Difranco's interniew with the "Progressive Radio" here.
she not only talks of her latest album, but about Feminism, politics and being pregnant as well.
... i gotta add that she is one of my favorite singer/songwriters... and she is an awsome gutarist (folk).
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i finally posted some of shots i took from this fall on my flickr... why don't i wanna talk of my trip to iran? and post any photos?... well, don't know... there are several reasons that i'm unconsciously aware of deep inside... (wwooh!) but ...never mind!
maybe later, or simply nev...!

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

i wish i knew

sadness is sticky,
like a swamp;
the more you try to get out,
the deeper you get in.

i don't see any reason for being born to a sad person...
but all i see are sad lonely people.
or have i truned blind to happy ones?

they all have enough,
but they are sad.
they are healthy,
but they are sad.
they even bear one or two kids,
but they are sad.

it never ends...
they are lucky though
that at least an abstract feeling, hope,
still knocks on their door
from time to time.
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this is not a poem or anything,... just came out like this.
i will post some shots of this fall that i took 3 weeks ago or so on flickr...
i don't know if i wanna post any photos of my trip to iran yet!!?
arrggghhh, how unmotivated i have become recently!! damn this life.
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